It's the Common Reactor

I'm a very unmotivated person. I don't know why. It makes me angry that I can't sum up the will to do the things I want to do. I come from a very musical family, and I know I have the talent to play piano like a pro, but I'm just not...bothered? Is it because I don't want to have the expectations and responsibility of being this awesome pianist like my parents want me to be? Honestly, I can't be bothered practising more than once a week. To me, that isn't determination. And neither is it creating much of a musical future for me. I think about this a lot. And I think about my future a lot. And I go through things I want to do, and I realise..i just can't find anything I'm good at and enjoy at the same time. I know I want to do SOMETHING, no way am I living off welfare and sitting my butt on the side of the road looking helpless and pathetic like SOME people I won't mention. So for now..I'm just going to float through everything and do whatever seems to pop up for me. If anything does.


~~ Let's break the window panes
and seperate the walls from all the nails
and maybe if we're loud we'll stay alive
while everybody wants to join the fight
but even if we barricade the door
and seal it with the blood found on the floor
we're always gonna cross the finish line
while everybody wants to run and hide
but now it's too late.~~

Byeo =)